Thursday, December 23, 2010
Life seriously sucks.
To my brother. I know you wont be seeing this. So im going to write it here.
Like, I dont understand what ive done wrong to deserve all the shit im getting now ? You promise and assure me that we will remains brother for life. Or can i say that nothing lasts forever ? :(
You gone like that, Just like that. Poof. Gone. I asked you what had happened, and you ran away, escape from reality. Dont dare to face me? I dont know what happened to you, you totally change. Changed into someone i dont know. I'm disappointed.
I know, people. Laugh all you want. I dont care.
Alot of people have asked me to let go, just give up and continue my life. I think thats what im going to do? Unless you come back.
Thanks ShiChin, Natalie and HuiLin. You guys know me well.
I have three hints today, and i dont know what they mean.
- This morning, as i entered Youtube, they recommended me some christian songs. [ What is the implication ? Isit asking me to pray and be patience ? Or am i not devoted enough ? ]
- Next, I suddenly see a quote from Sir Gregory, which says "Accepting what we cannot change and also in embracing all that life puts in store for us. " [ Isit asking me to drop it and continue with life ? ]
- Lastly, my phone music player played a song " Move Along ".
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, Move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, Move along
[ Really asking me to move along ? ]
Life sucks. seriously. Christmas in two days, i just want you to come back, my bro.
Posted by You are Corrupted ! at 12:29 AM
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Im doing this again. Every year.
Well. 2010 is coming to an end, I'll be doing the same thing again.
2010 ended quickly. The fastest year ever.
To me, 2010 is the most awesome year throughout my 17years. Its all because of my awesome brother, James Sui Zheng. The only brother that cares for me alot. Spending everyday with me, high-ing, randoming and bringing me to places i like. Going to his house for tennis, swimming and dinner with his family. I will never forget the few memorable things we did this year. Ubin trip, farm trip, my birthday at your house, Escape at downtown East, all the Bugis trips and things that happened during October/November. You will always be my awesome brother, Always. 有福同享,有难同当, You told me this. Our fondest memories :)
Next, People in school, Yvonne, Janice, Weiquan , Pearly, Hsiyuan and alot more. Thanks for being with in throughout this year. I know i have been throwing you guys to one side ever since James became my brother. But dont worry, You guys are still my AWESOMEs :X
Next, Wilson Wang, Wilson Ang, Wesley, HongGeap. I know it had been a long time since we last went out together. I'm sorry. Maybe we can go out soon ! :D
NPGGSBPC, I didnt forget you leh ! :) HAHA ! Birthday coming soon le ! :D YAY ! :D:D
ShiChin, Thanks for cheering me up during my darkness period in life ! :) You have been an awesome family member of mine ! :) You must cheer up too ! :) Though i dont know what happened to you, still, be optimistic ! :D
KuahHuiLin ! Wo mei you wang ji ni ! :D Thanks for helping me with accounts during the olevel period ! Studying together was awesome ! :) And also, thanks for cheering me up too ! :) Heehee ! :D
Things to do before 2010 :- I Just want didi to change back to as he was ! :(
2011 ! - Being close brothers with James :)
- Good results for Olevels !
- Good course ! :D
Thats all... :X
Posted by You are Corrupted ! at 3:33 PM
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Help me..
God.. please help me..
I really dont know what to do now.. I am feeling this sense of loss for the past few days.. It had been bothering me.. I want to cry it out, but i dont wish to let my family knows, please help me god..
I am lost. I dont know what to do. Really.
Its part of my life. Suddenly, its taken away. I can't handle it.
I want to shout everything out.. cry everything out..
Posted by You are Corrupted ! at 4:57 PM
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
God. I dont know what to do.
I am lost now. Really lost.
We swear that we will be brothers forever. But somehow, i couldn't stand it anymore.
It's like, I knew your condition is getting worst, your arms, legs and the rest of your body is itching. I went all the way to the Pharmacy and bought you medication, and sent it all the way to school. I was afraid that your wounds may itch again during your camp.. It was meant to be a surprise. But...
Why ? You just said "Thanks" and walks off ? Don't you find it too un-appreciative ? I mean.. DAM UN-APPRECIATIVE ? I went through all those trouble to find the medicine and sent it to you personally.. and you think the medicine is dam cheap ? Dream on. Don't take me for granted please bro..
Sometimes, i just feel like keeping my nose off everything . Trust me, i did. My friends had already ask me to stay away.. But i didn't. I know there is something bothering you, and you know it too.
WAKE UP BRO !
Posted by You are Corrupted ! at 11:46 PM
Monday, November 8, 2010
Been a long time.
Yeah yeah. I know. It had been a long time.. O levels are finishing. One more science paper to go. Whatever. Not in the mood anyway.
Yeah . Adults . Please get this clear. Wake up please. Better don't treat your children like slaves. Please. We have our rights to have freedom. You thinking locking children up at home will better nurture them ? No. Please.
I seriously hate you people.
And you too, but not as much. Why ? I sacrifice my lunch for you, and all i get was a Thank you ? I deserve nothing more isit ?
Why ? Don't you understand english or chinese ? I told you a time and again, yet you seemed as you don't understand. What ? Next year we don't meet le ,you happy huh ? You take it as nothing ? But for me, it meant alot. It's like losing a piece of my flesh, meat. MORE of a piece, one big lump.
We meet like around less than an hour each week. Seriously, its doesn't matter you ?
People told me to not care much about you. Just give up on you. But we made a promise ever since we met beginning of this year. Yes, i know you agreed with it. That's why i am not dumping you away. Yes, i also admit that i was abit harsh that day. Sorry.
I really dont know what to do with my life anymore. People are leaving one by one. I hate it. FML.
Posted by You are Corrupted ! at 12:46 AM
Friday, September 24, 2010
Day out with didi ! :3 - 24September.
Yesterday was an awesome day ! Dam awesome ! Went out whole day until 10pm - 11 pm with didi ! :) AWESOMEEEEE !
Dont wish to elaborate here ! gonna write somewhere else ! :)
Lovedieyou di. My awesome di. :D
Got back my result. Suck shyt.
English 41 - E8
Comb Hums 35 - F9
Comb Sci 78 - A1
E Maths 75 - A1
Chinese 45 - D7
POA VR
Class Position - 3/40
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
Posted by You are Corrupted ! at 5:32 PM
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Yet another memorable day with didi ! :)
Yay ! Another memorable day with didi ! :) Went to Escape theme park ! :)
Didi asked me to go his house at 7am ! :O SO EARLY SIA ! Then i reached Pasir Ris at 7.30am. Called didi until he wake up ! Took me 30mins ! :X 31MISSED CALLS ! :X Still tell me you sure can wake up at 7am ! LOLS :D
So.. me and didi went for breakfast at Kopitiam ! :) Had some awesome dry prawn noodle :D WAKAKAKAKAAKAKA ! Nicenice ! Then went to redeem a cup of slurpee ! :) WAKAKAKAKAKAKA ! OFF WE GO TO DOWNTOWN EAST ! :D Which is like..super close? LOLS !
Walk to downtown ! :)
Chiong-ed into escape ! Chiong to GO-KART ! :) Played quite a few rounds of it because didi likes it alot ! :) HAHA ! VRRRRRRRRRROOOOOOMS ! :)HAHAHA ! Funfunfun !
Then went to play some kiddy ride ! :D Didnt know it was so fun! Me and didi played the kiddy ride for around ... 10times ?! LOLS ! DAM FUN SIA ! DIDNT KNOW :D Me and didi went high again ! :D WAKAKAKAKAKAKA !
After that, Didi ask me to try Pirate's ship. He told me not to look down on it and also not to scream ! The whole pirate's ship only got me and didi, sitting side by side. Then the first few swings no problem. Problem lies with the next few swings. My heart almost came out ! Then i started trembling.. then didi was like.. " KOR ! DONT SCREAM ! "
IMMEDIATELY, I SCREAMED MY LUNGS OUT ! I cried also..and i went asmatic..
Didi immediately asked the person to stop the whole ship. Then didi tried to calm me down. Seriously, i cant remember what happened.. i only remember me breathing dam fast, like suffocating..
Then didi touched my heart area, heart pumped super fast ! :X Then didi changed his mind on playing the super high water slide, because he is worried that i'll go asmatic again.
Sorry didi, your brother here is dam weak. Can't even conquer a small stuff like this. Sorry !
Then we went to play kart again ! Quite a few rounds ! VROOOOOOOOOOMM ! :) Went to play the double player kart one, didi said he want to drive me. VRROOOOM SUPER FAST ! Chiong-ed to first place :D And he said.. " Kor, after i get my driving license, I'll drive you !" So looking forward to it ! :D
Went to eat mcspicy ! :D WAKAKAKAKA ! One week eat so much mac sia ! Gaining weight le ! Then we went to Whitesands to shopshop then meet James' mother ! Went to Bugis to extend the phone line, get one free phone.
Didi wanted to get Aino, and give it to me ! :D But, the price abit high, and his mother dont allow. Didnt buy any phone though. Nevermind ! Its okay didi :D
Woah.. really memorable day sia ! :D WAKAKAKAKAKA ! Going to bring bro to go-kart again ! This time, THE ENTIRE DAY ! :D
Posted by You are Corrupted ! at 4:21 AM
